Archive for März 2016

on not knowing what you want

März 29, 2016

After finishing your studies you start applying to jobs to finally enter the real world. Leave the comfy zone that  academic life has provided for -in my case- quite a few years. But you have no experience and the job market and its opportunities feel overwhelming. How to choose what you are fit for?

Well, my strategy has been to apply to any opening that slightly fit my cultural/heritage background. And to be honest, for now I have not had the problem of choosing between all those marvelous challenges, as all I ever receive are Thanks-for-your-interest-but-we-have-opted-for-a-more-qualified-candidate-Emails. Over the past couple of months I have developed anxiety disorders. Every time my phone signals a message I am scared to check it as it could be my Email-account with yet a new message turning me down.

I have started applying to jobs that are less connected to my field of study, yet more close to the assistant positions I have held during that time. But neither I am qualified for those, I have not been fully trained in that field. Also, I am not sure if this is what I want to do full time. I loved it on the side and have appreciated it being something that I could close the door at night to and not keep working all night – like projects that had to be finished in a certain time. Easy tasks. Though tasks I loved. But if I get a job there, how easy will it be to return to the field of studies which I feel I love just equally… Also, that I put so much effort into learning! Everyone has put so much effort in supporting me to see it through. How will it be possible to not feel like an utter disappointment. The time of studies wasted?

How do I make a decision like this? One to determine so much of my life? Sure I will go to the interview and give it my best shot. Also, I am quite sure I would accept the job, too, if they actually offered it after that. Still, always knowing there are so many more applications pending, so many things I would like to do, but that are also intimidating.


on girl rising

März 4, 2016

“You educate a man; you educate a man. You educate a woman; you educate a generation.” – Brigham Young

I want everyone to watch that movie! It is an incredible documentary that introduces us to a number of girls that stood up for themselves, stood up for what they believe in, stood up for a generation of young women growing up. I was stunned by their stories and the marvelous story telling the team behind this project managed. Captivating, Fascinating, Heart wrenching.

Those girls portrayed come from marginalized realms of society. Yet, they all face their life with inspiring motivation and ambition to learn, develop their ideas and conquer the world. They face hardships in a variety of form, yet, the most crucial one is finances of their families and traditional cultural mindsets. In some of the stories, the parents go without luxury in benefit of their girls and always have their back. In some, particularly fathers follow traditions and do undermine the girl’s potentials. Even suppress any personal drive and interest the girl has.

-my body is a resource that could be spend for men’s pleasure or profit-

No girl should ever have to face such a revelation! Educating girls is a long-term investment that is bound to improve society.

  • Two-thirds of the774 million illiterate people in the world are female
  • If all mothers completed primary education, maternal deaths would be reduced by two-thirds, saving 98,000 lives
  • If all girls had a secondary education, there would be two-thirds fewer child marriages
  • There are also 34million female adolescents out of school, missing out on the chance to learn vital skills for work (UNESCO 2013)

Education is the stepping stone to a career of ones own, to an independent life, to the ability to support your family, to change. All of the girls featured are on the verge of taking their life in their own hands. They will be role models for generations to come. I am tired of seeing girls struggle. Seeing women struggle for their rights. Even in Europe, North America, the so called developed world, women still face many obstacles in living a self-determined life. Women not getting into leading job positions, not receiving equal pay. This issue is not as far from us as we would like to push it. So let’s keep working towards changing the world.

-this life is mine to make – I am change –